Wednesday, March 17, 2010

2010

So we have new additions to our NORCAL family.  My brother and his girlfriend came to live with us in January.  So far it has been pleasant.  I am glad to have my brother here because I  needed someone who was part of my immediate family to be close to me!

 

Life at the moment is great.  Ruben and I are doing great!  This past Valentine’s Day was one of the most memorable.  He took me to the happiest place on Earth.  I love him so much!  But, I am starting to get writer’s block and am being distracted by the TV. 

 

Until next time.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Things you'd like to change about yourself 8/24/2006 @ 12:59 AM

So, last week I had an epiphany about life.  It really doesn't matter.  What I mean is that, each day could be your last day.  And, even though it's inconceivable for most people, you will die.  You will eventually die.  Your friends will eventually die.  Your loved ones will eventually die.  Everything you love will be gone and taken away from you.  EVERYTHING.


So what are we supposed to do?  Some people find troubles like these too much to handle, and opt to leave us.  It's really sad, that they would think there is no other option.  Some people just get depressed and stay that way forever, not knowing they are depressed.  Some people let it get to them, and it makes them bitter, it makes them angry.  I was one of those people, actually still am.  It makes me angry and bitter to have to know that everything I love will be taken away from me.  But, last week after having thinking about it for a while, I came to a realization.  If I spend all my time angry at the fact that life will inevitably crush you, how will I ever be able to appreciate the good times?  What's the point of going through the full ride if I'm not going to enjoy it? 


So I've decided to try to change something about me.  My overall negativity.  I wasn't always this way.  My brother tells me that I used to not be so serious and that I was much more social back when I was a child.  I think he is right, I know he is right.  I don't want to be so angry anymore, I don't want to be so negative anymore, I want to be more forgiving, I want to be happy for a lack of better words.  What does it mean to be happy?  Is it when you don't have anything to complain about?  Or, could it be that happiness is just momentary?  What do you think?


I know it's not going to be easy to completely change my outlook.  And, I know that a little bit of cynicism is always good for prudence.  However, I no longer want to be angry and have such a short temper with the people that I love.  Think about all the recent things that have pissed you off.  Now, think about how differently you would see things if you were on your deathbed.  Do you think any of those things would still bother you?  Some people are blessed with the ability to always look on the bright side.  Wouldn't that be awesome?
Why am I writing this?  Why am I sharing this with, what could potentially be a mixture of dozens of people who do and don't give a fuck about me?  Because, for all my life I have been extremely careful in who I allowed to get to know me.  I've been extremely careful in what I let them know about me.  I've always been blatantly honest, but now I am letting anyone who wants to know me to do so.  Anyone who will bother to read this entire blog.


"Aim at perfection in everything, though in most things it is unattainable. However, they who aim at it, and persevere, will come much nearer to it than those whose laziness and despondency make them give it up as unattainable."


"God, give us grace to accept with serenity the things that cannot be changed, courage to change the things which should be changed,
and the wisdom to distinguish the one from the other."

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Goodbye I.V. June 6, 2006 - Tuesday 11:36 PM

 

I am officially gone.  I am typing this from my brother's laptop here at 12 30 at night.  I must say, the 13 hour bus ride wasn't as long as I thought it would have been.  Sergio moved here with me, I predict me and him fighting a total of 34 times over the dumbest shit.  Anyway.. here are some things I learned about riding in a bus for 13 hours.

1.  Don't sit next to a morbidly obese person.  It sucks because their hugeness overlaps both his AND your seat.  You are left hanging and your back will hurt, not only that, but when he falls asleep he will sometimes suffocate you and you temporarily can't breef.

2.  People in Fresno are fucking nuts.  Within the first 20 minutes of our 2 hour wait in Fresno me and Sergio experienced a lot of funny.  This one black man dressed in a skit OVER pants with a woman beanie rolled up to Sergio, and almost whooped his ass.  He thought we were laughing at him, because we were making fun of everyone there.  Unfortunately, we had not noticed this complete donk.  Had we have noticed him, Sergio would have been forced to tell him that we did make fun of him, and his carm flop would have been fisted.  We got asked for money by about 20 bums.  One of them (a very skinny cracked out indian looking lady) followed sergio around.  I think she was tryna hit it, being as he does resemble someone from India due to the facial w00t.

3.  During a quick stop, if anyone gets out of their seat, gank that shit.  They won't ask you wtf is going on being that they are so groggy they aren't even sure if they even belong on that bus.  This is how I ended up with two w00t like seats to myself and slept a lot.  Yay.

4.  Stockton has a lot of black people.

5.  Stockton has a lot of white girls who rap about killing.

3 Reasons to Remain Single April 3, 2006 - Monday 12:42 AM

These are my current top 3 reasons for not being in a relationship.

Relationships are hard.  And even that is an understatement.  Where I'm at right now, I don't have the patience nor the ability to deal with someone else.  I see my homies, and I see my friend-bitches, and the big picture always seems rather blah.  I can't even find a justification for such practice to be honest.  But anyway, before I end up talking about some complete irrelevant shit, as I said relationships are hard.  You have to learn to bite your tongue.  You have to lay down the law, but know how to do it or else you will offend her.  You have to kiss ass.  You have to spend all your money on them gumans.  Shiiet, mothafuck that!

Women at this age are, for the most part, untrustworthy.  This conclusion of mine is based on 100% pure empirical evidence and personal experience.  It's not just the women I know, it's the women my friends know, and the ones they know and so on and so forth.  Girls are different from men when it comes to being put in a situation of temptation.  Women go with their heart.  Men go with their dick.  It is much easier to ignore a dick then it is to ignore emotional feelings.  This is obvious and inarguable.

Spring break, or any such situation where hedonism will dominate, calls for non commitmentness.  You can't go with your girlfriend to spring break.  Apart from breaking the law (don't take sand to the beach), you are also putting yourself in a position where you will be looked upon as a bitchmade faggot who can't control his woman enough to get permission to go alone.  Be honest with yourself, you don't have much fun when you party with your girlfriend.  You are there at a party to relax and shit chill, throwing caution to the wind and just doing what feels natural and good to you.  But, this directly conflicts with a relationship because women need attention.  You talk to another woman, your guman will bitch at you.  You talk to your homies, she will say you are ignoring her.  No sir, in such situation, you are FUCKED.  Don't be a fool, girlfriends are for indoor activities, courtship, and headaches.  They are not for having fun, chillin like a foo, or optimum moneyage.

How to be a Man February 4, 2006 - Saturday 3:56 PM

Having experienced 20 years of being a constituent of the male species (Yes, men and women are not in any way, shape, or form a part of the same species.  Men are a species of logic and reasoning, women are a species of emotional irrationalism.), I have carefully observed and learned the prescripts (or shit you better do in order to not get your ass beat).  Unlike women, who backstab, cry, suck dick, scream, suck dick, produce delirious drama, suck dick, lie, suck dick, and lead lives as if they were muses, men operate, or should at least, under a certain code.  That code is as follows:

I. Bros Before Hoes:

     This cannot be stressed enough.  Girlfriends come and go.  Your boys will be there to see you engage in numerous amounts of silly relationships with silly bitches.  And, they will always be there for you when you are ready to pursue other means of nani.  Breaking this rule is to commit the cardinal sin against Team Testosterone.

II. Always ask if it's ok to drink the last beer:

     In most cases, your friends will say it's ok.  Otherwise, a simple rock paper scissors game will suffice.

III. If a girl falls into the following criteria, she is off limits forever until the end of time… or 2012:

     1.  Was an ex-girlfriend of a friend.
     2.  Your friend specifically told you he wanted her, and liked her.
     3.  She is your homie's sister. However, if she is your homie's cousin, not only is she fair game, but you are officially encouraged by me to go hence forth and rub it in his face for years to come.  (Sorry Gzuz)

IV. You must never own a cat, ever.

V. If you get two tickets to a big game, the priority list for the second ticket is as follows:

     1.  Your best friends (in order of how long you have known them)
     2.  Your acquaintances
     3.  Your co-workers
     4.  Some broad you are hoping to terrorize
     5.  The mailman
     6.  NASA
     7.  The UPS guy
     8.  Your dog
     9.  George Bush
     ....1,234,940.  Your current girlfriend

VI. There are no mercy rules when playing someone in madden, ball, poker, bare-fisted boxing, etc.

VII. It's alright to cheat at any game where money isn't involved.

     With that being said, it's safe to classify most relationships as "games."

VIII. When out with the guys, never accept a call from your girlfriend

     Unless she is dying or trapped under a burning fuel truck, and if that's the case, make it quick.

IX. Play poker, and do it well.

X.  Bros before hoes:

     I told you that this couldn't be stressed enough, didn't I?  It's such a travesty to see a perfectly decent young man fall victim to fagdom for letting his bitch rule his life and cut him off from all that is holy (w00t).

More rules to be added upon further research...

Dubya January 19, 2006 - Thursday 1:30 AM

The Worst President in the History of the United States

Is it just a coincidence that when you type, "worst president in history of United States" on Google, you get a biography of George W. Bush?  Go ahead.  Try it.  "A recent informal, unscientific survey of historians conducted at my suggestion by George Mason University’s History News Network found that eight in ten historians responding rate current presidency an overall failure. Of 415 historians who expressed a view of President Bush’s administration to this point as a success or failure, 338 classified it as a failure and 77 as a success. (Moreover, it seems likely that at least eight of those who said it is a success were being sarcastic, since seven said Bush’s presidency is only the best since Clinton’s and one named Millard Fillmore)" (McElvaine).

George W. Bush is a complete moron. Not only is he a moron, but he is the commander in chief of our nation. I have many reasons for believing George Bush is the worst president in the history of the United States, but, for the sake of keeping this short and simple, I will reduce it to three core reasons.

Only a moron would wage war on something as intangible as "terror." Our environment is in bad shape, and he is not only not helping but he is actually exacerbating the state of it! Last but not least, he is just a simpleton in his values, intelligence, wisdom, merits, and travels. All of these reasons lead me to believe that George Bush is indeed the worst president in the history of the United States.

The fact that this man started a war on something so intangible as "terror," is just laughable. It’s like starting a war against "bad stuff" or "iniquity." How retarded is that? One would think that in this day and age we would have the sense to elect a man of thinking and valor. But no, of course not. We have to find the biggest redneck in Texas and hand him our nation to fool around with. Anyway, I’m not sure how one would win a war against "terror."  It’s just a fact of life that where there is power there is terror. We have been in Iraq for close to three years now, and there has been no progress. How ironic is it to invade a country to free it? How does that make any sense? You’re right. It simply doesn’t. Iraq is not a country that will ever have a society that resembles ours. They are a nation where religion plays a big role in the fundamentals of the social structure, and we will never have any power to change their culture. Hey, maybe we should just wage war on "non-christianess." At least this way we would know who to fight and where to begin. This man had no plan when he decided to invade Iraq nor did he have an exit strategy. It’s as if he said, "send the marines and army over there and we’ll see what happens, fuck it." There is no plan, there was no plan, and there never will be a plan of action. This is so because it is impossible to plan a course of action when starting a war on an intangible enemy.  But, the whole point of going to war wasn’t really to end “terror” now was it?  A much more obvious objective makes better sense. 

Our environment is declining and our climate is finally starting to show us what will happen if we do not act accordingly. We have already experienced the worst hurricane season on record. We have seen the planet getting warmer and warmer over the years. I have lived in El Centro since I was three, and this winter is by far the warmest one I’ve ever experienced. There was a time in the 60's when it actually snowed here. Yes, you read that right, snow. This winter I barely find a need for a sweater when I leave my house at night. It used to be you had to bundle up at night when you slept. This winter I barely even use any blankets. The ozone layer has been obliterated for some time now. We don’t take care of our forests or the animals. Now you must understand, when I say "we" I don’t mean you and me. I am talking about the nation and more specifically the people in charge for such things. "Not coincidentally, one of the first things that Bush did when he came into office was to order the Justice Department and EPA to drop a series of 75 lawsuits against the nation’s worst-polluting coal burning power plants. These large companies were allowed to continue poisoning our children with impunity. Why? During the 2000 campaign they had contributed $48 million to Bush’s presidential bid and have given $58 million since. They provide campaign contributions, and Bush allows them to pollute" (Sanders). How sad is it that the United States is a caveman when it comes to protecting the environment? We used to be the best and most advanced when it came to environmental research and care. This man has ruined our country. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to do the math. Our climate is getting warmer. Greenhouse gases make the Earth warmer. Therefore, we need to reduce our output of greenhouse gases. It’s not too hard to figure that out. I reiterate George Bush is the worst president in history of the United States.

Did you happen to catch the presidential debates? If so, you would have seen a calm, collected, pensive man argue with a slow, stuttering, illogical creature. I, for one, wish that the leader of our country would at least be somewhat articulate. Imagine, a man who can speak his mind and do it well! George Bush was a "C student" all throughout his life, and that is a documented fact. Shouldn’t the leader of a nation be an overachiever? If I could do anything about it, I would want my president to be a well-traveled man. Instead, we have this ethnocentric moron who presumes to argue that our freedom is "better" than any other country’s. This man speaks from his ass not from experience. I mean, can we at least get him someone to type up what he says from now on? This man is not only the worst president in the history of the United States, but also the dumbest.

Or, are we the dumb ones? Yes, this country is definitely stupid.  We are the ones to blame. We as a public allow his blatant corruption to go on unquestioned. Maybe he is the mastermind knowing that a nation will give their loyal faith in him, and therefore he would be able to slap them in their face and take their money. Maybe we are the ones to blame for allowing him to start a war against a country, knowing that his vice president will make money when rebuilding the country.  Ask some veterans, if you are lucky enough to know any that escaped with their lives, about any escorting missions or pipe missions.  I have had the privilege to have conversations with some soldiers who were blatantly told they were going to drill and pump oil all day long.  Maybe we are the worst generation of human beings in the history of the world. We are definitely the fattest in our nation’s history. Is it such a stretch to consider that our critical thinking, values, and morals have also taken a turn for the worst? I do not have the answer to all of these questions. I have to stand by my gut feeling and say that I believe George Bush is the worst president in history of the United States. I suppose I could be wrong, but I’ll let you make that decision.

Bored December 17, 2005 - Saturday 7:06 PM

So I'm going to free-type for a while untill I no longer feel like typing be aware that I will use no formal type of grammar and I might not fix my spelling typos because im in one of those "im a rebel" attitudes anyway i have an aim box and an msn box flashing these people are trying to talk to me however i am reluctant to type back because i have to be honest with my self and the fact of the matter is that they are boring people someone once told me that there is no such thing as boring people it just means that you yourself are boring and i say this to that.. fuck you i'm entertaining... anyway i just burped and it kinda tastes like beer i drank a lot last night when i went to m2 shit was cool but i drank too much we finished 3 buckets among 3 of us and im more than sure that i drank at the very least 10 beers i think that an obnoxious amount i wouldnt want to be able to drink more than that fuck the bullshit anyway im wonderin why none of the foos have reckoned a poker session kinda weird i know they aint doing shit jesus is prolly with joana or talking to her on the phone becuase thats what people do when they have a girlfriend sergio is probably in his room hating himself ira is probably.. ah who gives fuck about ira? rob is with tina and tina is with rob and if they aren't together it is only a fraction of time before they ineviteably meet wow i guess those are the only people that i reckon are homies oh i forgot twan well first i have to say lmfao about twan cuz twan wow this foo reckons the w00t but i have to tell him that the w00t is indeed a sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffsss lmfao yeah she is indeed that too bad cuz foo was like w00t but im like foo you arent going to go to the marines and he is like wtf im like yeah foo fat dome sessions and he is like true but reckond advil but anyway that foo is stupid and swears he knows more about lifting weights and he is trying to get bigger but is actually losing weight lmfao w00t

ok im tired of typing

I just wasted a couple of moments of your life, haha.